Lor’s Blog

Writing random thoughts so bare with me-

You have just been given a diagnosis of a terminal disease.

You get second opinion, but its clear and your given a few months to live.

Imagine-

You KNOW your body will not be in existance …. your plans beyond the next few months dont matter…. your mind automatically has to re-prioritize everything.

What matters now?

Does your diet matter?

Does your job matter?

How are you feeling about the last arguments you have had, and do they need closure?

Is it still really important to keep on your kids about grades? Chores? That they didnt pick up thier dirty socks?

The girl on her cell phone who just cut you off in traffic… and refuses to acknowledge it…. what are your feeling about it?

You ask your family (who isnt aware of the diagnosis) to slow down and have dinner together, but everyone is eating at a different hour because they all have plans. What are your thoughts?

How are you feeling about the newest flu going around, the newest law being passed, that gas is going up again ?

I ask because by the time I get to these questions my perception,my frame of reference, my point of view is very different.

The more I contemplate, the more nothing matters.

Goals, plans, pieces of paper with <insert whatever is meaningful> on them … nothing matters.

Whats left?

And when you can answer that question, how does that change how you interact with people from here on out?

How can we keep that frame of mind without having to die for it?

Is life a series of self-imposed stressful moments that you innerself places before you when life seems too good to be true , simply to try to induce that frame of mind?

Is death something we go through just for the brief moment of experiencing what is important?

Would we even have to die if we lived in perpetual appreciation and in constant connection with every other sentient being?

Many ancient cultures refer to people living hundreds of years in a lifetime. Are they all hallucinating? Did they tell time differently?

Is there something in addition to the slowing of time through complete lack of stress that could account for ascension?

I have read books about Meher Baba and his teachings.

I love him. He confused the hell out of me.

On one hand, he is very detailed about reality and how it could take so many lifetimes to rid one of their sanskaras . He demanded very strict discipline from his students.

On the other hand he says,”dont worry,be happy.I will help you”

I get “stress” and then I get “dont stress”.

comments welcome.